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IUD [May. 3rd, 2010|10:05 pm]
[Current Mood |optimisticoptimistic]

I got the mirena put in today.  Funny the hormones seem to have increased my mood and I no longer feel depressed :?
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What to do [May. 2nd, 2010|10:17 pm]
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Well, we are very much a like and this sometimes has its downfall. I try to see mainly positive things, but lately I have noticed he hasn't as much interest in me.  This is bothersome, since we've only been married for 3 months lol. Wonderful. 
He has been very stressed these past couple of months and I wonder if I am just babying him too much.  It seems men become cocky when women are nice to them; and when women are mean to them, they fall in love...

I think I should find other interests outside of this.

I have become unnerved by his constant neg attitude and violent tendencies. Sometimes I feel as though I was just settled for, even though most men find me very attractive ~ he seems to be one of these "The grass is always greener..."

I am also very much interested in lifestyle BDSM, however I have brought it up over and over, only for him to not show any interest.

I deserve better than this.
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Why I am here [May. 2nd, 2010|10:06 pm]
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[Current Mood |mellowmellow]
[Current Music |My husband cooking]

I'm not sure I'm going to explain myself just yet as there is way too much. But I will tell you I am 28 years old, newly married and have a 6 week old newborn.  I am also what they call a 'vampire', however I cannot find others near me that are of the like minded. 

This journal will be used for me mainly to vent, since I feel I cannot tell what I really feel in the present reality.
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Lobotomy [Feb. 11th, 2010|04:53 pm]
I would like one sometimes. Sometimes I don't want to feel anything anymore. I don't feel like I can connect to people. I look at these people around me and they all have no clue what's going on. They don't understand they are creating their own superficial realities. Sometimes I don't feel like there is a point to me anymore, even though I'm pregnant....
What kind of life can I give my child when I can't even create a pleasant one of my own?
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