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[May. 3rd, 2010|10:05 pm] |
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| | optimistic | ] | I got the mirena put in today. Funny the hormones seem to have increased my mood and I no longer feel depressed :? |
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| What to do |
[May. 2nd, 2010|10:17 pm] |
Well, we are very much a like and this sometimes has its downfall. I try to see mainly positive things, but lately I have noticed he hasn't as much interest in me. This is bothersome, since we've only been married for 3 months lol. Wonderful. He has been very stressed these past couple of months and I wonder if I am just babying him too much. It seems men become cocky when women are nice to them; and when women are mean to them, they fall in love...
I think I should find other interests outside of this.
I have become unnerved by his constant neg attitude and violent tendencies. Sometimes I feel as though I was just settled for, even though most men find me very attractive ~ he seems to be one of these "The grass is always greener..."
I am also very much interested in lifestyle BDSM, however I have brought it up over and over, only for him to not show any interest. I deserve better than this. |
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| Why I am here |
[May. 2nd, 2010|10:06 pm] |
I'm not sure I'm going to explain myself just yet as there is way too much. But I will tell you I am 28 years old, newly married and have a 6 week old newborn. I am also what they call a 'vampire', however I cannot find others near me that are of the like minded.
This journal will be used for me mainly to vent, since I feel I cannot tell what I really feel in the present reality. |
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| Lobotomy |
[Feb. 11th, 2010|04:53 pm] |
I would like one sometimes. Sometimes I don't want to feel anything anymore. I don't feel like I can connect to people. I look at these people around me and they all have no clue what's going on. They don't understand they are creating their own superficial realities. Sometimes I don't feel like there is a point to me anymore, even though I'm pregnant.... What kind of life can I give my child when I can't even create a pleasant one of my own? |
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